Pregnant Stories

recently, most of my reading sources whether those i picked up at campus library or on the internet were about pregnancy and they are young mummy to be!
i picked up few books from library's shelf, without reading the sinopsis first(usually i did!). when i reach home, i realised that 2 from 5 books are the pregnant story book.
one of it is 'Bled Dry" by Erin Mc Carthy, story of a woman having a vampire's baby. their relationship is actually notin' more than one night stand. that vampire is very romantic, gentleman, soft spoken and typical as he came from 18th century after over 2000 years of slept. and the other one is 'The Yorkshire Pudding Club'-a story of group pregnant woman that share everything together. they spend time to shop together, cook together and keep sharing stories about babies and hubbies.
i dont know is this just coincidence or a sign for myself in determining my unstable health in this week.
i'm just to afraid to test it. im afraid of my hubby's frustration, and my dissapointment as well....my degree application result will be announce in the middle of november.
it had been two month since my last menstruation period...
"Ya ALLAH Ya Tuhanku, bantulah hambamu ini menghadapi kecelaruan perasaan ini."