one found dead, one is still missing

sob..sob...dis entry is going to be kinda sad...let me cry for a minute.
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I start the day with shockingly woke up at 5.25 a.m for sahur, 15minutes before the imsa'.
open up the fridge to see that my fruit basket is almost empty, only few tomatoes and a carrot left.

took the blender, cut & clean the fruit, and blend it meanwhile fry some burgers for us.

5.40 ++ finish with the sahur. going to the mosque for the Fardhu Subuh jam'aah.

got back from the mosque, looking for my missing kitten, with my praying suit still on, calling it's name outloud (i might woke some of my neighbours though.) around my house...and then...spotted a dead body near the fence.

i feel like huggin' it right away but,thinking that i was still wearing my prayer suit, i went inside the house, informed dokter and change clothes.

after done changing, i went out again and find it already buried by dokter.

one question answered. but there is one more missing kitten since 3 days ago

and went to the store, to get some goose's pellet and noticed a very bad smell inside it. it was 6.45am and the surrounding was still dark, nothing can be seen in the store. but i tried to lift up some of the 'periuk warisan' (as the store is used to keep all the pots from 3 generation already, all big dat i could'nt keep it inside the house). but i see no sign of a dead kitten.

the smell is gettin' worse as longer I stood there. i felt almost vomitting. before my fasting is disqualify, i left my backyard with questions still in my head.

where is my other kitten?

if you are still alive and somehow spotted my blog on the net, and read this post, please come back to ibu. ibu really miss you.

but if you are no longer here, with us, i pray for your peace night and day. take good care of your lil' sister who just followed your step towards your creator this morning.

p/s I love you : i felt such a bound with my pet that when they die, part of me were gone as well. but i wonder does'nt those people who kill their babies feel anything?especially the mother? who had the babies for almost a year inside her, eat with her, sleep with her. they are so heartless!!

jahanamlah kamu para pembuang bayi sekalian!

i am a girl who loves scarves.

and my husband is realy having problem with my interest ni.

so do I.

i can barely stop myself from buying new scarves everytime the caught my eye.

from the cheapest price range to the expensive ones. if I could'nt afford it at once, I'll collect money or.......copy the fashion and do my own version, which is cheaper than the one in the market.

luckily, i always get the idea to ciplak the design...maybe tailoring had been part of me since i was little kot.

ha ha

i think that is normal. I mean a girl should be shoesaholic, bagaholic, and scarves-a-holic to be NORMAL rite? you are not a girl if you are don't have at least one of these 'holic' things, even my free-haired muslims and non-muslims friends fell in love with the scarves fashion nowadays.

pendek kata awak bukan perempuan la kalau xda rangsangan terhadap fesyen.

project terbaru saya : nak jahit chiffon Syrian / Farra hijab two layer. kebetulan KAMDAR ada sale. fuyyooo. just the right time.

i spotted one of the scarves blogshop sellin it at RM 60 ++ and I think I can save much more if i made it by myself.

the total cost for a scarf will not even reach half the price they sell i think.

inspired by ROZITA CHE WAN dalam siri Aku Terima Nikahnya @ Astro Oasis.

tapi dia punya tudung ada awning, sy xpakai awning so saya adjustkan untuk jadi Syrian/ Farra hijab. lagi senang.

p/s I Love You : nanti kalau my creation work well, i 'll upload the pic wearing it okay!

untitled

i don't really know what will be the best word to be the title for this en3. i don't ever know what am i goin to write in this en3.

life is soooo miserable right now.

i had been receiving soOOooOo many questions about my decision to extend my degree.

soklan lazim UPSR 2010 : are u pregnant?

dats okay lagi kan...boleh jawab dengan senyum-senyum ala kambing xgosok gigi, sambil control macho geleng-gelengkan kepala. " ehh..takder lah..."

but how bout this...

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orang bertanya : lamanya cuti...nape xg kampus lg?

orang ditanya : saja...nak extend.(sambil sengeh2 ala2 manja + cover mengong gituww...)

orang bertanya : aik...(sambil jeling semacam) how many month are u? is it boy? is it girl? got any morning sickness?

okay, soklan yang bertubi-tubi macam ni, umpama peluru Israel laknatullah membedil Gaza, sangat menyampah untuk menjawabnyer okayyy!!

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sambung balik

orang ditanya : dok ehhhh....(dengan menyampah dan meluat sekali)

orang bertanya : pah tu bakpo? takkan la saje-saje ko nak quit study dik non oiii....ala, bgtau je lah apa nak rahsia2 pulak,!

orang ditanya : takder rahsianya cik kak oiii...dah kata takder-takder la.(sambil menahan dengusan nafas yang dah dirasuk setan supaya cekik2 orang bertanya tuh.!)

orang bertanya : habis tu, tak pasal-pasal benti blajar apesal?

orang ditanya : ada la pasalnya.(masih lagi menyampah)

orang bertanya : ye lar..nape?

orang ditanya : (dengan geram gila menjawab) orang nak fokus naik kuda betoi2, ada paham tak!!? itu la pasalnya. hah, kenapa?xboley...

orang bertanya : eh, eh boley-boley..haa elokla tu kan..kalau dah minat kan...suami pun sokong kan...(dengan memek muka serba salah, sambil betul-betulkan tudung, gaya orang cover celupar uolls!!)

kemudian, dua2 pihak blah camtu ajer.....

oh my dear blog, hanya kamu jer tahu perasaan aku ni. betapa berserabutnya dengan pertanyaan macam ni...

suka2 suruh haku beranak, ada kamu nak tolong jaga anak haku kalau haku nak pergi competition?(walaupun banyak buat kerja crewing je pown kan!)

ada kamu nak tolong support pampers + susu baby tu sampai besar? sebab mummy dia ni xder pendapatan sendiri okeh. dan saya rasa ibu2 dan bakal2 ibu sangat la setuju kalau saya kata maintenance baby lebih mahal dari belanja kanak2 3 tahun ke atas okeh!

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ape da..asal orang kawen jer tanye anak. tak patut tu. haku nak honeymoon dengan dokter pown xpuas lagi okehh! bukan masanya lagi nak bertiga berempat berlima tau!

nak g pasar malam dua2, nak g PCB pimpin tangan, makan ABC kat perdana resort suap2, jogging langgar2 hip, nak g wat treatment sama2, cycling sama2, dan yang paling penting...nak riding berdua xpuas lagi okehh!

p/s : xbley blah imagine diri sendiri & dokter naik kuda dukung anak. ngeri siottt.

da tau dah tajuk en3 nie. lepas geram kat orang banyak mulot!!

down memory lane..

its me! 2 years old!

location : my old house.

noticed the model-alike pose?blame my sister. she's the one who responsible to be the director. "dik senyum dik", "adik tengok sini", adik buat muka, dikkkkk"

and this => 16 years afterwards

any difference?
just the scarf maybe.
coz i always love short hair.
always.

release tension!

the whole week was hectic!! im so stressed and tensioned!!
luckily i have the CURE...


everyone should hv dis lil' massager at home


look at the variation

my best companion so far...

okey..lepas ngurut2 ni kita tgk nk wat per plak...jeng..jeng..jeng!



ha! nk menjahit...dear readers dont be shock coz i am a daughter of a taylor...dan sy dibesarkan di atas pola2 dan dasar2 baju...no wonder lah sy tau fesyen! satu lg,sy dah kalis menggunakan pembaris 'L' dan tali inci coz these things used to be my present when i was lilttle and naughty.
cuma....xboleh potong kain. boleh jait jer...kui kui kui...

ujan

its raining out there....n im mourning in here, in my room....monthly illness!